well things are getting kinda scary.

chris sent me, jonathan, and bobby and email saying we have to get invoices in and our numbers up by friday or else he'll be forced to make "immediate staffing decisions" – but we all know that bobby will never be fired b/c he's chris' best friend and the ops manager – and it seems highly unlikely that even though jonathan is a worthless employee, that they would fire him b/c he's got a penis and b/c he talks sports with them constantly – so that leaves me. i don't know if the email was meant to be directed towards any one person, but it felt like since there were only us 3 on the email and i know how this division works that the email was directed at me. even though if it came down to me and jonathan, i can do MUCH more than he can and would be willing to do much more to keep my job than he would. if you even mention more responsibility to him, he gets all huffy and mad – but i'll do it. if it was meant to be just a meaningless threat, then that's the cruelest thing i've ever heard of especially in these times – you can't threaten me with losing my job b/c it's too real of a possibility.
nick was sent home from work at 8:30 this morning – not fired or laid off, but sent home without pay b/c they didn't have anything for him to do – another terrifying thing – that means that the paycheck for the week of christmas will be tiny and that's something we can't afford.
we did the 4d ultrasound on saturday and it was cool and stuff, but den and kev said they'd pay for it, but they didn't, so that was unexpected and hurt us financially (in a serious way), but they're letting us use their home depot card to fix upstairs, so we're not going to hound them at all about it – i just wish we'd known b/c while it's awesome to do the 4d, it would've been better spent on bills and groceries. I just wish we'd known better and not even scheduled it. we could have waited till march to see her.
i'm trying really hard to maintain a positive outlook, but it's looking more and more downhill and that makes it difficult. this is christmas, it's supposed to be awesome and fun – but it's not. i got nick's presents before i knew that we were looking at no money, so he's gotten his presents, but i haven't gotten any and won't get any b/c we can't afford them and we can't even afford the $15-$20 we're supposed to spend on christmas presents at den and kev's and that's just super frustrating

I have the best husband in the world

I have the best husband in the world
He read one of my blogs on here and saw me saying something about not getting xmas presents b/c we can't afford it and he used some of the money he was saving for a computer for himself and got me my favorite perfume, a cd (that's awesome and by someone I never would've thought about getting a cd by), and a massager pillow for my aching back/feet/neck. Damnit he's awesome.

week 29

ok, well, i'm 29 weeks as of this past sunday. that's pretty awesome. got another 4d ultrasound b/c on the 13th we didn't get a very good pic of lola's face. this one was free (yay) and we got some better pics, but she still wanted to be a butthead and hide behind her cute little fist, lol.
i'm still doing fine. blood pressure is excellent, the swelling still sucks, but not much longer so i can make it.
mom's coming to get me at like 8:30 this morning to go shopping with her. she's gonna get some stocking stuffers and some baby stuff, so that's awesome.
dad and donna are gonna stop off friday on thier way out and take us shopping for the stroller (yay too), and stuff, that'll be fun too. they already gave me a boppy pillow and a couple maternity shirts for xmas on monday b/c they needed to make room in thier truck, lol.
it's been raining for like 24 hours - i wanted a white xmas, not a wet xmas - ick.
okee, that's all i know.

6 3/4 months - 27 weeks

she's moving alot now. nick can feel her when he touches my belly - and sometimes, when she kicks real hard we can see my belly move. it's still very strange to think that there's a person in there. still surreal.
we're done with xmas. i'm not getting that dishwasher that i really want. we just can't afford it. it's $200 we don't have. we gotta get upstairs done. we're waiting on the electrical which should hopefully be done sometime this week, so maybe next weekend we can finish up (that would be sweeeeet).
next saturday we go for the 4d ultrasound. it's gonna be awesome (i hope).
i don't know much new. i'm sick of being broke and ready to win the lottery, lol - who isn't though?

week 26 check up

well, i had another check up today - i'm 26 weeks 2 days - i freakin' gained 10 pounds in the past month (UGH!!!!!) and i noticed something new while looking in the mirror.... STRETCH MARKS!!!! i have them!!!! just to the right of my belly button in a clawing looking pattern going down to my pubic hair.... there's like 7 smallish ones.... i'm not really all that bothered by them. i mean, i always thought i'd freak out - but really, i'm not worried about them. i know they come with pregnancy and as long as i get a baby out of the deal, i think stretch marks are a fair trade... am i a weirdo? :)