baby’s 1st picture

so i went for my 1st prenatal today. i thought it was just going to be blood work and stuff (that's what everyone said) so nick didn't go with me... and what did they do? an ultrasound!! i hate he missed it, but there will be plenty more and i have a picture for him too. the minute she turned the monitor to face me i saw it and knew where the heart was and the little arm buds and i super teared up and tried not to cry and then when she turned on the sound so i could hear its little heartbeat it was everything in my power to not burst into super duper tears. it was awesome. nick'll hear it. next time it'll be bigger :)
anyways... without further ado... baby paisley!!! (and i had to scan the picture to a pdf, then screenprint and paste this into paint to get a dang image, so the pic i have for real looks much better than this):

round ligament pain

so i wondered... what is "round ligament pain"? now i know... it's like a strained muscle pain. it comes on strong and sharp, lasts like... a minute... and then goes away.
jesus i'm bored today.

fart

well... nothing new. had sushi last night (cooked shellfish, back off) and it had hot stuff on it... and HALLELUJAH i actually got to USE the bathroom instead of just hang out in it... i guess i need a tablespoon of hot sauce with every meal to keep me regular, lololol - god i'm gross sometimes.

we're totally broke, and it's scaring me - i don't know how we're gonna save up money to fix the upstairs - i mean, i know the family's gonna help and stuff, but it just seems so damn daunting... and getting the room ready and nursery stuff and all that... and then maintaining the house while i'm on maternity leave b/c i only get 2/3's of my paycheck and i have NO IDEA how we'll pay the bills with that. we live paycheck to paycheck, we have NO savings, we have NO extra. yea, we went out for sushi... and we shouldn't have AT ALL b/c we CAN'T afford it... but we did it anyways (dumb, i know)... nick doesn't have a car, so that means the baby transport will ALWAYS be on my shoulders - on school days i'll HAVE to go get it from daycare, bring it home and then rush back out to school and hope i'm on time - but if he had a car, he could pick it up - but we CAN'T AFFORD a car... i just wanna win the lottery, lol - not a million bucks... just enough to pay off some bills and make life a bit easier... maybe like $100K, then we could pay off bills, get nick a car, and stick some in savings... geez that'd be nice...

dad and donna sent me a gift card for sears - got a bra and some pants (b/c i've been so bloated that mine haven't been fitting very well), so that's awesome.
just in case: DAD I CALLED TO SAY THANKS BUT GOT YOUR MACHINE. I'LL CALL AGAIN LATER (he reads my blog, lol).

i'm constantly tired. if i poo, it wears me out... if i wash a dish, i'm exhausted... if i walk from my car to the office, i'm barely holding my eyes open - i hope this doesn't last the whole time (i'm sure it will). this lady at work asked me if i thought it was twins b/c i'm so tired already - shit... that's my response to that question - shit... there are 2 sets of twins on my mom's side of the family (in the "great" section of lineage) - so it's not likely, but not impossible. i get to have my fist gyno visit next week on the 29th. yay for my gyno. granted, i haven't seen him in a couple years, but i hope he's still awesome.

okee, i'm gonna find something to watch on tv.

pooooooooooooooooooo

oh my god i feel like crap. pregnancy is not fun. i can only hope that after the first trimester it gets better - otherwise i don't know if our kid will have any siblings, lol.
if i don't have a headache, i have constipation/gas cramps (which hurt and make me cry), or - and this is new - i'm so hungry that it HURTS... since when did hunger hurt so much? and after more than a couple hours of being awake... i'm tired. i've napped more than i did in college in just the past 6 weeks. i took a laxative which helped with the constipation, but didn't help with sleeping thru the night. i keep waking up to go sit on the toilet and pray for something to happen and i ended up taking my bathrobe with me this morning and wadding it up on the counter so i would have a soft place to rest my head while i sat and waited.
i know, i know - you're thinking to yourself, "my what a yummy topic! i'm so glad i read this post"

registering

ok, we registered at babiesrus (and are in the process of registering at target too). since we don't know the sex i put in stuff for both girl rooms and boy rooms and i'll delete the incorrect one once we find out :)

morning sickness

i think i'm really lucky. i haven't had any morning sickness. i got the farts, the poops, the stupid mood swings, but at least i'm not vomiting
i haven't been eating well, so i went to kroger and got some carrots and celery and ranch dressing. i can eat that and it'll be good for me and stuff...

there needs to be some website where you can go and beg for money that you don't have to pay back. that would be awesome b/c we need money but we can't pay it back. being broke sucks. ugh!

i like artichokes.
this is a totally fucking random post.
rawr.

moody

on my god i want to rip eyeballs out right now. maya whined at me and i want to scream. this has GOT to pass NOW. i have no reason to be this irritated but i AMMMMMMMMM FUUUUUUUUUUUCK.
this fucking sucks.
oh hormones can fucking die and go to hell!!!!!!!!!!~!!!!

i have to take a shower or something to try and calm down, this is retarded - and what's worse is that i know it's retarded and i can't fucking stop it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pregnant grossness

ok, i warned you... other than headaches and being tired... i got the runs... and i want them to stop but i can't take anything safely and it's retarded and i fart alot... and i looked and apparently these are both also common symptoms of pregnancy... so i'm gonna be a fart poo monster for at least the first trimester... and i'm tellin' ya... these farts could kill an elephant... it's actually quite embarassing when i'm at work... i gotta figure out something about that. maybe put a dryer sheet or something down my undies, lolololol.

ok - boy name that i like: elijah henry (henry is nick's granddad's name)
i have a lot more but that's my favorite of the moment...
girl names are another story... i think i like jude or river or skye... oh hell i dunno.