ugh, induction woes

ok, so i'm super swollen and sick of being pregnant and sore and i'm just over it and i vomit up everything i eat b/c the congestion has turned to drainage and the stomach acid is retarded so i can't hold down more than a few mouthfuls of food at a time and this sucks... but i'm 38 weeks and not even a little bit dilated... so my doc had said if i want that we can induce on my due date... and i originally thought that yea that would be a great idea - but if i'm not dilated by march 9 (my edd), and we induce, that means we'll have to use cervadil first and THEN induce and that makes it all the more painful and the nurses have told me that most times those women (the ones that had to be forced into dilation with cervadil) end up being the ones that "fail to progress" which just means that the doc doesn't want to wait any longer and so they do a c-section and i DO NOT want a c-section... so i'm going to put off induction until the next week (march 16) and hope and pray i dilate by then and hopefully go on my own (there is a full moon right around my due date)... i just started thinking about it last night and i really don't want to be one of those women that ends up being cut open just to make things easier on the doctor. i don't want to think/assume that my doc would be that way... but it is very common that it happens that way and i don't want to be one of them. and since i only have a set amount of time i can take off from work, i have to be thinking about that. so i will get induced no later than march 16 regardless of what's going on b/c by then i will have already lost 1 week that i could have had with my baby and i don't want to lose 2 weeks, ya know... i just really really don't want a c-section (unless medically necessary).

3 weeks left...

well, we got another ultrasound for estimated weight today - 7 lbs and the ultrasound tech said that they normally overestimate by about a half pound, so she's really more like 6.5-7 lbs - so i'm totally ok with that b/c i've been scared of having a big baby b/c nick's side of the family has gigantic babies. she's got a full head of hair too, which they could see in the ultrasound, that was awesome. i'm still not dilated at all, but dr. stack said that next visit we can go on and schedule the induction and just hope i go on my own before then - i'm not waiting past my due date, not with this swelling. this whole time i've been pregnant and swollen people have asked me if my feet/ankles/legs/etc hurt and they haven't... until now - the past week or so i've been hurting constantly in my legs from the knees down. so it's good that it's right at the end of the pregnancy, i can handle it - but i'm not handling it any longer than i have to - so if little poo hasn't shown her cute self by march 9, then i'm getting induced. and if i'm induced, then i will probably (but not definately) just get an epidural b/c i've heard the contractions are much worse when induced. we'll see though.

woohoo

interesting developments… 36 weeks along, not dilated yet, but i wish i was. dr. stack said next monday when i go back that we’ll do another ultrasound to get an idea of how big she is – he then said that if she’s really big he’d offer a c-section, but i want to avoid that as much as possible, which he’s cool with. he also said that if i start to dilate anytime now that he’d be ok with going on and inducing and that if i haven’t dilated by my due date that we can check me into the hospital and give me cervadil and then induce the next day – so she’ll be here soon!!! my feet and legs are swelling even more, which is to be expected this far along in the pregnancy. nick rubbed my feet last night for like an hour, it was heaven – he’s awesome.

i’m having weird dreams – like the other night i dreamt that eartha kitt was an alien, but she was nothing but goo (kinda like snot) and she was in space in her snot rocket and i had to fly a stainless steel fridgedaire up to her to mop her up b/c she spilled and there was random music which was composed of nothing but LALALALALALA and val kilmer became the governor of new mexico by bribing one person with $30,000 and bribing some woman with a dog.

i’ve had a sore throat for 4 weeks now. i’ve taken a z-pack that dr. stack prescribed to me and nothing happened, i’ve been taking sudafed to see if it’s a drainage issue, and that seems like it MIGHT be kind of helping – maybe it’s from the congestion that pregnancy causes. i hope so. at least i know i’m not contagious otherwise everyone around me would have this too – so i don’t have to worry about passing it on to lola when she’s born.

i’m getting scared of labor since it’s getting closer, but at the same time i’m super excited about it b/c that means she’ll be here. i’m also starting to have little worries like what if the 2 ultrasounds were wrong and she’s really a he and we’ve done the room all girlie and have nothing but girlie clothes. if that were to happen, i would be surprised, i would laugh about it, i’d be glad we’d already picked out a boy name... and then i’d try to see how to manly-fy a pastel pink and mint green nursery, LOL!!!

i’m so tired lately. i could literally take a nap right now. well, i guess that’s all.

the nursery

the nursery is done!!!! yay!!!! mom came over and helped us clean the whole house (we forgot the bathroom, but it's no big deal since it's so friggin' small) and put up all the laundry (which was atrocious) and we got the nursery finished and it's cute and the house is clean and i can have this baby anytime now!! seriously, let's have her, i'm ready, please! i got a pedicure today and was hoping the whole time that it'd throw me into labor, lol :)

blarggg

we got the furniture finished in the nursery!! excuse me, NICK got the furniture done in the nursery. i wasn't much help at all, although i did hold 1 piece of wood for him while he put together the crib :)
i washed an entire load of baby clothes and realized, as i was trying to put those up, that i still have an entire box full of more clothes to wash and put up (ick).
tomorrow nick and i are going to walmart to buy the mattress for the crib and mom's coming over with the bedding and to finish up the curtains and to help us clean the house to get it ready for lola poo b/c i'm so big i'm about to explode and my legs are HUGE and swollen and nick can't get it all on his own (not to say he doesn't try, it's just that at this point it's so far gone b/c we've been storing presents and baby stuff all around the house since christmas).
i'm so tired, lola's so heavy, rolling over in bed sucks, getting up to pee literally every hour sucks, my legs being so swollen sucks - seriously, my legs (feet, ankles, calves, knees, and thighs) are so swollen that pants are hard to wear b/c my legs are bigger than the legs on the pants - but my blood pressure is fine and there's no protein in my urine, so doc says it's "normal", just the sucky side of normal.
ugh.
that's all. :)

33 days and counting....

went to the doctor yesterday - i'm not dilated, but that's ok - i still have 33 days till my due date. i'll be going in every week now, so that sucks b/c i HATE internal exams. nick is worried about not being a good dad, but i know he's gonna be awesome. i just hope that i'll be as good. mom made curtains for lola's room, they're cute - hot pink with green polka dots. we got the rocking chair home so that's awesome also. we're gonna put the crib and/or the changing table together tonight. i really wanna get it finished. i need to buy baby detergent. i always thought baby detergent was just for super sensitive skinned babies or a gimmick to take your money, but i found out in birthing class (and thru reading the back labels of various detergents) that most regular detergents reduce the fire retardancy of baby clothes and blankets - so i gotta get some and wash all her clothes (all her NB and 0-3 mos clothes at least) and get 'em put up. got some thank you notes, i still need a few people's addresses, but i guess i'll do and send what i have and eventually i'll get the missing addresses and send those too.
lola keeps moving and rolling around in my belly. it's quite awkward and sometimes pretty uncomfortable, but still awesome. i'm just really ready to have her. the swelling is getting ridiculous, i no longer have toes, i have sausages. but my blood pressure is fine, my urine has no protein in it - so there's no cause for alarm. i know it's just gonna get worse before i have her, i just hope not too much worse.
we're getting the crib mattress this week also and the bedding should be in anytime now - so it's getting awesome and exciting and close and it rocks - I WANT MY BABY!!!!
man scary. we'll see what dr. stack says tomorrow.

i think i'm having contractions

well i'm gonna ask my doctor to be sure, but i think i'm having contractions - not like regular i'm-in-labor contractions, but just random getting-ready-to-really-do-it type contractions. they happen in my back, but they aren't radiating around to the front like i read they're supposed to, so i don't know if that's really what they are or not. it's happened maybe 3-5 times in the past week-ish. it happened again today about an hour ago or so. i was peeing (tmi, i don't care) and all of a sudden it started in my back and just hurt so bad i thought i was gonna fall off the toilet face first. i couldn't think of anything other than how would i get my pants back up if it didn't stop hurting... and then it went away after like 30-45 seconds. it was terrible. i'm terrified. if labor feels like that then oh my god. i can handle cramps and pain in the front/lower area of my pelvis all day long (like where normal period cramps hurt) but i'm a back wimp in a big way... oh man oh man oh man scary. we'll see what dr. stack says tomorrow.