thai food rocks my baby’s socks

she likes thai food. i've decided this b/c i ate thai for lunch and she moved almost constantly for an hour. kicking and thumping and poking and whatever the hell else she was doing in there. her movements are getting stronger, so that's cool. i know eventually they'll get to the point where they hurt, but right now they're cool :).
i'm so excited it's almost christmas! i love christmas. it rocks.
oh she's moving again.
we're totally going to have a hyper baby. lol. it's gonna be awesome.

One of those Days

Today is one of those days. One of those days where I just don't feel happy or chipper or anything really. I don't want to cry or laugh or yell. I'm very blah. Lola keeps moving, that's an awesome thing but I'm so emotionally blah today that it's not helping (don't get me wrong, it's awesome, but it's not like making me jump outta my seat). I hate days like this. I went to Wendy's for lunch and ordered the wrong thing, I tried to get it corrected at the window, which they did but not without an attitude – I called up a vendor to check on an order and they were "so busy" that they didn't even let me finish a sentence when all I want to know is why does it take a month to send our customer their order – I have to wear these pants that aren't comfortable b/c now that my tummy's getting bigger I only 2 have pairs of comfortable pants and the others are pants that I shouldn't have bought (although I didn't realize it at the time, my bad). We need tires for Nick's truck like something fierce and we may have to forego Christmas entirely to get tires for him – which is not what I want to do, but if we have to then we have to. Today is just so very blah.
Yesterday we had a meeting at work, telling us that while he can't guarantee that we won't be laid off if the economy gets worse, our boss is trying his best to keep it from happening. That's great and stuff – but unfortunately you can't put much hope in that speech b/c he is the division manager, but he's got bosses and they've got bosses and those people are the ones that determine lay offs. I just want to stay employed with health insurance long enough to have the baby. After that we'll figure something out. Nick's insurance for the baby is free, but to add me it's $400 a month – that's ridiculous, and I don't know what we could give up to make up for it – oh well, we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.
Nothing's done upstairs. We've had to use every penny we've managed to save – we have to get it done by March, there's no way around it. I don't know how we'll do it, but we have to b/c Lola's gotta have a room and Nick's gotta have a place to put his stuff (a climate controlled, decent place – just the attic or a shed isn't a viable option). Ugh.

she’s moving

she's been moving for about 3 minutes now... just random little punches about an inch below my belly button.
this is awesome.

she kicked!

well last night was our anniversary and nick and i were laying in bed watching tv and he laid his head on my belly to try and hear her (like he always does, so sweet) and she kicked... and kicked him in the ear and HE FELT IT TOO!!!! yay! i'm so glad. that was awesome. now i'm just waiting for her to move some more.

20 weeks - November 2008

well hello month 5! i'm half way there - half way to baby time!!!! we went to margaret and charlie's yesterday (my god parents) and they (along with their friend/nurse mary) got us a gigantic box of cute as can be baby girl clothes in size newborn and 3 mos! woohoo for cute stuff. we have an antique dresser in nick's room (where the nursery will be) but there's a broken drawer and i've been trying to figure out how to get it fixed, but nick had a good idea - use the open space for like diaper and lotion and wipes and such storage. it's too tall for me to put a changing table pad on it, but from what i hear i probably won't be using a changing table that often, so we'll see what i do :) i still haven't felt her move too much. just a few times. i want her to move more!!!! now!!!!! ok, that's all.

paranoid, but better safe than sorry

ok - girl stuff - that's all the warning you get boys and people with weak stomachs...

ok, so i was leaking, and it freaked me out b/c i didn't know if it was normal discharge or pee or what, b/c i read when you're pregnant you have more discharge than normal, but i also read scary things about leaking amniotic fluid and dead babies and i got scared and called the doctor, and they had me come in at 11 today and everythings fine. it's just discharge... getting to hear her heartbeat made all the fears go away and then the doctor did a quick pelvic and confirmed that she's fine/i'm fine/we're fine - so i'm better now. just had a mini panic attack. probably b/c this is the first pregnancy for me and i don't really know what's normal and what's not :)
but like i said... better safe than sorry.
yay for healthy babies!!!
:)

19 weeks today

19 weeks along. woohoo! almost half way there. i want her to move more :)

she poked me :)

so, i got my first real movement today. it was very light, felt like she poked me twice from inside. i'm sure it was a kick, but since she's tiny and stuff it felt like a light poke. i want her to do it again... but i know it'll take a bit before it becomes an all the time/common thing.

it’s a girl!!!!!! - mid-October 2008

it's a girl!!! lola simone paisley. and she already has a cute nose! :)

swelling feet

alright, well - after this weekend i noticed that the swelling in my feet and ankles only happens when i'm at work. this whole weekend i didn't have a single bout of swollen lower extremities - (and so far none today even though i'm at work, knock on wood) - but all last week while i was at work i had edema issues like a mad woman. weird.

tomorrow's the day!!! let's hope the baby's got my no modesty genes and shows us what it is!! i'm sick of calling it an "it", it feels wrong, lol - i wanna say "him" or "her", "colin" or "lola" - and i know i was all about little girls and stuff before - and don't get me wrong i'd still love one with pink and ribbons and glitter - but i realized that a little boy would be awesome too. a little man to grow up and love me and be one of those boys that doesn't let you talk bad about his momma, with stinky, dirty hands ready to hug me, and digging in the dirt and being an uber boy and throwing his toys on the side of his bed to help me clean up, lol - a boy would be wonderful too. i think i've just been scared of a boy b/c i'm not a boy and don't know how to care for one - but if it's a boy, i'll learn just fine.
if it's a girl i'll just have a head start b/c i've got tons of hello kitty toys, lol
well, that's all i know. i'll let ya know whether we have twig-n-berries tomorrow or not!!

nausea

so i'm nauseous. haven't been hungry the past couple days, i've eaten, but it's like nothing is what i really WANT. i eat b/c i know i need to but not b/c it's super yummy, but i have no idea what i actually want to eat.
had to buy a couple pairs of shoes today b/c mine won't fit comfortably anymore... turns out i've gained a 1/2 shoe size - yay swelling/water retention/edema/whatever the heck it is.
i need a nap. i wish i could go home now. i'm tired. it's sleepytime. i wish i could take a bath but we don't have a drain stopper and rigging something is much more effort than i care to put into it.
in 6 days we find out the baby plumbing!! yay!!!

shoes, grrr

So my feet are swollen. They go up in size, they go down – depends upon my body that day – today they're swollen and I can't wear my normal shoes so I have to wear flip flops b/c they're all I have that'll fit comfortably. Chris mentioned something about it and I said, "This is all I can wear b/c my feet are swollen." And he said, "Yea, mine are too" in this real sarcastic tone of voice. I'm sorry, but I'm serious. That was really really rude. I want to b*tch slap him.