yay

i look at my daughter asleep and i realize how lucky i am.
i look at my husband asleep and i realize how lucky i am.
damnit... no matter how things may be going in my life financially/with the car/etc... i'm lucky and happy.

calm

ya know - i've noticed that i'm much more calm now that i have lola. sure, the tranny on my car is going out, but i'm not worrying about it like i should - i have no idea where the money will come from to fix it b/c we can't shit out $500-$1000 for a new transmission, but i refuse to stress over it. the only thing that stresses me out now is when she cries and i can't/don't know how to make it better. i like this low stress madie.