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well... nothing new. had sushi last night (cooked shellfish, back off) and it had hot stuff on it... and HALLELUJAH i actually got to USE the bathroom instead of just hang out in it... i guess i need a tablespoon of hot sauce with every meal to keep me regular, lololol - god i'm gross sometimes.

we're totally broke, and it's scaring me - i don't know how we're gonna save up money to fix the upstairs - i mean, i know the family's gonna help and stuff, but it just seems so damn daunting... and getting the room ready and nursery stuff and all that... and then maintaining the house while i'm on maternity leave b/c i only get 2/3's of my paycheck and i have NO IDEA how we'll pay the bills with that. we live paycheck to paycheck, we have NO savings, we have NO extra. yea, we went out for sushi... and we shouldn't have AT ALL b/c we CAN'T afford it... but we did it anyways (dumb, i know)... nick doesn't have a car, so that means the baby transport will ALWAYS be on my shoulders - on school days i'll HAVE to go get it from daycare, bring it home and then rush back out to school and hope i'm on time - but if he had a car, he could pick it up - but we CAN'T AFFORD a car... i just wanna win the lottery, lol - not a million bucks... just enough to pay off some bills and make life a bit easier... maybe like $100K, then we could pay off bills, get nick a car, and stick some in savings... geez that'd be nice...

dad and donna sent me a gift card for sears - got a bra and some pants (b/c i've been so bloated that mine haven't been fitting very well), so that's awesome.
just in case: DAD I CALLED TO SAY THANKS BUT GOT YOUR MACHINE. I'LL CALL AGAIN LATER (he reads my blog, lol).

i'm constantly tired. if i poo, it wears me out... if i wash a dish, i'm exhausted... if i walk from my car to the office, i'm barely holding my eyes open - i hope this doesn't last the whole time (i'm sure it will). this lady at work asked me if i thought it was twins b/c i'm so tired already - shit... that's my response to that question - shit... there are 2 sets of twins on my mom's side of the family (in the "great" section of lineage) - so it's not likely, but not impossible. i get to have my fist gyno visit next week on the 29th. yay for my gyno. granted, i haven't seen him in a couple years, but i hope he's still awesome.

okee, i'm gonna find something to watch on tv.