who's on first?

Well, I’ve changed my mind again (after talking with Nick last night). We only want me and him to be there when the baby’s born. Mom and our friends/family can visit during labor and after delivery, but for the actual birth, we want just me and him. It feels much better to me to know it’ll just be us. We’re the ones that created this little life, I want us to be the ones that welcome her first and so does he. He also said that he doesn’t like to show his emotions to anyone other than me (I’m sure he’ll forget that there are doctors and nurses in there). I’ve told mom which was the hardest thing to do b/c I was terrified she’d be upset, but she was surprisingly encouraging about it. She said she understands that it’s an intimate time and that it’s best to be shared with just me and him – so that’s a load off. Now I have to tell Lucy, I haven’t talked to her in a couple weeks so I gotta call her and maybe go for coffee or something so I can tell her. She’ll be fine with it, especially when I explain that not even mom is going to be in there. I do feel a little bad b/c I was so excited to have mom and her in the room with me and Nick this whole time, but as I get closer to term I find myself rethinking things like that. It’s like it’s seeming more real now and it’s seeming like less of a group event, if that makes sense.